Three's huh?

Bad things happen in threes?  People die in threes?  Relationships get rocky in threes?  Good things happen in threes??

The bad.

I tried to tell myself for years that I wouldn't care when my grandmother died.  Following the casket into church I saw my grandfather shaking and my mother holding his hand as if she were 5 years old and she did not know how to comfort here father.  I began to sob instantly.  My cousin Maria held me in the pew so I could gain some composure to lead the service in song.  I sang the most beautiful psalm for my grandmother, it was my apology for not loving her like a granddaughter is supposed to.  I hope she heard it.

He called me crying.  It's just not fair.  I wish there was something someone could do.

So where's the third?

The good.

John graduates next week. He got a GA position.  I am proud of him! even if he does skip class to play monopoly and paper mario

My sister is moving up here and I helped her and Brett find a place to live.

I'm going to Mexico in 3 weeks with my mommy to the Riviera Mia and I'm super exicted!!!

Le Sigh

I got up early and took care of business at the Field Experience Office...it should all work out alright and I didn't have to promise my first born. 

I feel better after some Wii with John where I totally kicked his butt at Ping Pong...now if I could only master that stupid pool game!  Sometimes all you need is some cuddles.  I'd lie, cheat and steal for the cuddles!  Hell, I'd kill a man!!

I am looking forward to going to IKEA this weekend with Amanda, Brett (my sister's bf) and my Seester

My brother is back in the states!!!!

Overall, today was a vast improvement over this last week and a half. 

Founder's was two weeks ago and here are some pics

Currently Listening Marie Antoinette By Original Soundtrack see related

I am an idiot.

So these last 2 weeks have sucked harder than a vaccum on a straw.  I thought this week might be better but apparently it is national school is a gignormous pain in your ass week.  Everyone seems to be struggling. 

I was nearly fired today.  My supervisor told my boss he had no idea where I was last week when I clearly emailed AND called and told him my grandmother passed away.  Then after that gets straightened out my supervisor told me that my work was unreliable and that he didn't want to but if I didn't start putting out results faster he would find someone else.  Awesome.  My favorite part was how he acted like the snow storm, a funeral and him not being able to work in the lab were MY fault.  So, I will be working like crazy because apparently I just plain suck at actually doing science.

I also excel at forgetting to do EXTREMELY important things for school.  I knew that I had to have my application turned in in November to student teach next fall...I didn't.  Where the fuck was my brain on that one???  So now I have to go suck up the field office and pray they will show me mercy and give me a placement even though I am mentally challenged.  Fanfuckingtastic.

Sorry I'm such a Debbie Downer...I hope your week is going oki.

Side Note:  RELATIONSHIPS ARE NOTHING LIKE YOGURT

They don't come with a predetermined expiration dates.  You don't get to throw them a way because you started the relationship with the notion it wouldn't go anywhere.  You can't treat others as if you expect them to disappoint you or that they will never taste as good as they did before the expiration.  That seven year itch stuff is just horse shit.  Relationships having an expiration date is just a way for fickle people who have no love for themselves or others to get out before they really have to put anything in.  Relationships are more like wine...they taste better and go down smoother with age.  You don't get instant gradification with wine, you cannot just bottle and then drink.  Relationships take time and work. 

Happy belated New Year!